waiting

Jenn went to the doctor yesterday for her first ultrasound and when they turned on the picture we saw that there was nothing there, just an empty space where our baby should have been.
Jenn just went to bed and we are waiting to see if we are going to need to go to the hospital tonight or tomorrow for her to have surgery to remove what is left of the pregnancy.
This is hard. It is hard to watch my wife suffer and at the same time I am mourning the loss of this baby. This happened to us last year too, but there is a significant difference in my feelings. I am mourning this loss and I am present for my wife. Last year I was angry and emotionally distant. I understand that this is part of our story and we know that God is with us through this difficult time. I talk to everyone about peace, inward and outward, and it is in these times that I see and feel the Spirit breathing peace into my life.
Our family has been great and I appreciate how they care for us. James and Kelly, thanks for helping us through this, you are always there for us, I love you both.